"DON'T YOU QUIT"


This blog is a first for me, it describes part of my life before, sometimes during and after tranplant. working towards recovery, charity kayak (uk circumnavigation & Ireland) if humanly possible, and leg, and how I deal with my diabetes during training and expedition, maybe some inspiration along the way.


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William Blake

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Monday 26 July 2010

Oxford results.

Well it's as I expected, the long and short of it is, because of previous surgery it is a technically difficult operation to perform but not impossible, if I decided to go ahead the chances of surviving the operation are very low, they may even stop the procedure during the surgery.
If I did make it through, because of the circulation issues I may lose both legs and my transplanted kidney, amongst others. As he didn't expect me to look so healthy the wise decision would be to not go ahead. This was said after I had given him an idea that I wasn't really 100% committed, He was very good about it and I think slightly relieved at my decision. If in the future things deteriorated the option is always there.

So now that's sorted on with the challenge in hand, It's no good dwelling on it and bringing myself down.

Oxford transplant visit

It's been awhile since last on here, really watching my food intake, protein levels and carbs.
Getting allot more essential Fatty acids and eating more raw. This happened pretty quick, mainly because of the bug I got a few months ago; I assuming it's a bug. It's very hard sticking to this way of eating and getting enough calories and being a diabetic, getting on the water has been hard also because of this, but I'll get there.

Off this morning to see the Oxford transplant team. Last time I saw them, they suggested that there would not be a problem performing the Pancreas transplant, just may take slightly longer because of the previous operations.
A month ago I received a call from the Transplant coordinator saying that they may not be able to perform the Transplant,  to difficult and dangerous for me, so they would like to talk to me. I know what there going to ask.
I do not want to go through, in any way what so ever, anything like the complications that surfaced before. So if the decision is left to me I won't decide there and then, I know some people will be thinking if it was me and I had a chance of a knew Pancreas I wouldn't hesitate, but at what cost? all sorts of problems arose before, My bowel was nicked, my Aorta burst, I was drip fed for months, I know people go through worse, but How long will it last it's not for ever, It could be but it may not. I just don't think I could physically and mentally do it again, and there's my family to think of first and for most, when it came down to it before, I was more concerned about leaving them behind, maybe that's what pulled me through, not sure and at this moment I don't want to remember that far in........