"No man has ever been born a Negro hater, a Jew hater, or any other kind of hater. Nature refuses to be involved in such suicidal practices."

Harry Bridges

"From the viewpoint of absolute truth, what we feel and experience in our ordinary daily life is all delusion. Of all the various delusions, the sense of discrimination between oneself and others is the worst form, as it creates nothing but unpleasant"

Dalai Lama

Your body is failing, you realise how fragile you are, your surroundings seem sharper, colour and smell, there's a feeling that travels through every nerve and tissue, I'm leaving, I can't, what about the people I love, I can't leave them with this

Then there's a chance for life, a transplant the doctor comes to your bedside, your consumed with anticipation, "I'm very sorry my friend but your not a complete match we thought your skin colour was the same, and you obviously speak a different language, If you only lived in another part of the world!!!"

Prejudice and Discrimination.

Would you refuse a transplant for a daughter or son or yourself because you didn't speak the same language as the donor?.

Spent a couple of hours out on the water training, up an down the bay, a nice paddle heading East along the bay. The wind was 4 - 5 slicing South East over my right shoulder, backing NE this made for a nice paddle going back. The sea went from slight - moderate to occasionally rough, I find this better than just calm "sometimes " lol.

My Blood Sugar is settling down a bit now, I've reduced the Lantus in the evening to 16 units. Just before going out my BS was 7.1 so I had 3 Krackawheat and cheese 15g cho. and a couple of sips of Lucozade sport.

An hour and a half latter it was 13. Half way through the session a became very thirsty, I new this was due to the BS and also I never drank much yesterday, big mistake. I've always got a pain in my Right shoulder I'm hoping that this will ease up a bit with more gym sessions although I've got a feeling It's still going to be a slight problem, this is from years of Plastering.

I also managed to test my blood sugar out on the water without getting the machine wet or dropping it in the drink, which I'm pleased about. Definitely need to get a head cam for the trip, I don't want to miss any wildlife and sites that I'm "Hopefully" going to come across.

Today I had a few Cormorants keeping me company, there's something about being out alone on the Ocean with the wildlife; there's nothing common about the Cormorant skimming along just above the surface of the water, it's magic.

I can only imagine how Hayley Shephard feels when she See's an Albatross fly above and dive for food, with it's 12 ft wing span.

Kayak session

Paddled out today did a couple of hours of continuous paddling, nice and calm, sun shining on the water, with a slight swell. Experiencing some spring and neap tides this week so further to pull the kayak, not a problem something I'll have to get used to with this leg.
Started to alter the insulin this week dropped the lantus last night to 16 which is only 2 units to start with; bit by bit.
Changed breakfast slightly, from eating weetabix to 100gms of Oatmeal along with the usual. I gave myself 5 units of Humolog which brought my BS to 9 from 6.8 2 hours later just before going into the water, I ate a flapjack and drank 200mls of lucoszade sport during session.
My hands were to cold to test my BS and would of been difficult to get any blood from my fingers.
Once I got back in my BS was 18 so this was obviously to much intake of food and not due to the liver pushing out Glycogen although it may of done if there was not enough insulin in my system. As the day went on I corrected this by injections.

One of the Beach huts was open when I got back to shore, with the smell of sausages and beefburgers cooking, that was welcoming on a cold day, but I didn't get any because I had no cash on me so had to settle for what I had in the car which was the healthy version, (dam).

Went in the Bay today for some training, must try to get in as much as possible now, at least 4 times a week. spent the morning paddling up and down the bay getting the feel of the kayak and spending time with different maneuvers.
Its been a long road since leaving the hospital after transplants, to where I am now, and still a way to go to be able to complete this trip; but I will get there.
A number of things drive me on, one of them being that, so much can go wrong physically if I just sit back and do nothing, but that's pretty far down the list.

The sea today was slight with a NNE (14) wind, it was a bit cold around 2 or 3, I think, but when your paddling you keep warm, unless I fell in of course, and I don't really want to do that at the moment, not a good idea to get the plaster wet.

Coming inshore I got greeted by a small dog, it jumped up on the Kayak and started licking my face, was it glad to see me or was it the salt. a good end to a mornings paddle.

Route Plan

South West Stage

The yellow markers are the start and end of each stage, the red markers are weypoints or landing points

Kidney (Hemodialysis) procedure

It can be very hard keeping your fluid intake down to 1/2 a litre over the course of two days, and you soon realise how little that is.

Nutrition, Diet, & BSugar

Diet at the moment:

Breakfast
2-3 Eggs scrambled
2 Weetabix/Oatmeal with 2-3 cups of full fat milk
Mixed dried fruit (that's been soaked in water) Dates and Raisins, Creme fresh, Evap milk Cinnamom

maybe some chicken while cooking it for lunch that day.

Snack

Apple (if needed before training)

Lunch



Chicken Salad drizzled with Olive Oil

3 slices of Granary Bread

Dried mixed fruit as for Breakfast

Snack

3 Cheese on Krackawheat

Dinner

Chicken Veg stir fry (sometimes Fish)

Boiled Rice

Before Bed

1 Cheese on toast.

1 Chromium tablet per day- and Vit B complex. Minimum of 2 ltr water, EFA capsule.


(Training between 11 and 13:00)

Going to cut down slightly on the amount of dried mix fruit because of the high concentration of sugar which I'm not used to, and add more nuts and up the amount of low glycemic food e.g granary bread