Well been hit by a stomach bug "NICE" just when I was getting in the groove as they say. I haven't had a bug since the transplants, and I can't seem to get rid of it. I did go to the doctors as a precaution and I was the third to call in that morning so there is something going around.
The thing is my diet is pretty good and always has been, I tend not to eat any crap so as far as fat is concerned I don't carry;" lucky you" yo may say, but I have to work hard to put on muscle and keep it. we all have a cross to bare lol.
I'm going back on the transplant list for a pancreas, and at the moment going through all the tests. I'm still not sure about doing it because of what happened before; I just about made it, had allot of problems with surgery, i won't mention it here but if your interested you can read the story in my profile and click on "Thank you". I know it's the way to go because of more complications which could arise. There's allot to weigh up, there is a possibility it could happen again and there's more involved with this surgery because of the Aortic graft, and of course there's the issue of my leg, I could loose it below the knee or face two years of operations, or maybe struggle on as it is, which won't do me any good.

In the mean time I think about being positive, they say that life is like looking in the mirror it reflects what you put out, so you try and look for the good in everything, find what you enjoy doing, and then the next. It's good to have contrast, :-) but not to much hey. Most times the head can get in the way, so I try and follow my heart. I try to live one day at a time, I find if I look to far ahead that's when the pressure builds up I'm not saying hide away and ignore it because we have things like bills to pay and commitments, there's something to be said for just "being" living for today, none of us are perfect and never will be and we'll never get everything done, there will always be more to do, life can be a struggle if you let it but they are also the times when we can grow. I'm grateful for what I have now.

Anastacia Defeated

Do you know what I mean. Music sometimes just does it, right?
Although the word fight may not be quite right, Fight conjures up a struggle, stress, a 50 50 chance of losing, I don't think you should feel like that, you will! because we've been brought up to believe that it's the only way to achieve something or win out........

The Blood Sugars are starting to settle down today, thank god. I haven't exercised in the last couple of days, purely because I needed to see what effect twice daily would do then get a base to train on, it looks like I may up from 9 to 10 in the morning to train in the gym I probably wouldn't do that if out on the water but then it may be better to do that combined with less to no humalog and the taking on of carbs

I'll be back in the gym tomorrow. I'm making steady progress, I should probably be pleased on what I have achieved so far, as I was 10 1/2 stone when leaving hospital and 5'11, I think I'm around 178 kilos now, but I'm always think I can do or be better lol.

Felt a bit crap today, only because I've split my lantus dose to twice daily today, this should give me better control over my blood sugar especially during training both in the gym and on the water. Never done this before in the 30 years of being a diabetic, so looking forward in seeing the effect.

I'll through in the odd photo :-)

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Spent a week away from the gym, and as always although it was a few days my blood sugars went silly and suffered nutrition wise just missed meals and had to use more insulin. I know it sounds obvious but it's a routine that seems to go out the window to.

I learnt allot from the kayakathon and roughly have an idea what my insulin dose should be.
The first half of the kayak my BS was 16 way to high and I suffered, before setting back I gave 2 units of Humalog and when I finished it had dropped to 8, so it dropped by 4 an hour.
I did drink water and sipped some lucozade sport through a camel pac but not much.

I intend to get out on the water and do some training similar to that of endurance paddlers....

It was my own fault that my blood sugar had risen that much, I did have an idea what my lantus dose should  be, I knew it wouldn't be far from what it is now because of the training I was doing already, but this is endurance, well to me it was; so i did over compensate with food at breakfast.

As this had never been done before on the Thames, Simon was concerned about it running smoothly and I didn't want me putting a spanner in the works. I think he was already concerned with the fact I had my leg in plaster below the knee and the fact I was a Diabetic. He did know about the transplants I had though.