Stomach calming down I think

The past couple of months I had tests to see why, to put it nicely, I've had a upset stomach. They all came back, "nothing wrong", well I can tell you there was. so that was it really sort of left on my own to sort it out, so I tried to find out if it was certain foods, I cut out all dairy, bread, pasta even stopped eating chicken as I thought that was where I may of caught a bug from, so whats left, veg and fruit right.... so that led me onto the raw diet, it's good but very hard, and not the answer as all that veg didn't help but if I was to believe what the raw foodists say this is a result of years of a bad diet being flushed out of my system.

I never really ate a bad diet, i.e processed foods. I'm a Diabetic all I really ate that would be considered bad by the raw group would be pasta, chicken, wholemeal bread, rice. I can understand the chicken aspect both morally and nutrition wise, and haven't eating chicken since, apart from the other day. Maybe I'll talk more on the raw diet another time, because at this moment  I can't keep to it, I'm eating eggs and rice and have started to eat some cheese again, incidentally my cholesterol level is 3.1 and has always been this low.

One of the reasons I have started incorporating some cheese is my stomach issues, touch wood is settling down. This may be a coincidence but five days ago I started taking some enzymes, something called Regulat, which is fermented fresh fruits, veg and nuts. I did a lot of reading into enzymes and on the way also noticed that water or lack of it can also cause Diarrhea, bit of a mine field really, it all boils down to trial and error and finding out what works for you but certain things rang a bell with me especially being a diabetic.
Below is just one of the clips I found on you tube.




I hope this works as up till now I'm not absorbing the nutrients from the food I eat, so not getting the calories I need. I'll gradually bring back in some of my normal foods with the addition of what I've learnt in respect of the Raw nutrition and more water.
If I get cravings for certain foods then I'll probably have it, to me that's my body telling me it is lacking in something it needs, now I'm not talking about cream cakes, chocolate etc, for example yesterday I had fish and chips, the other day chicken, I know I need more protein at the moment, I try and eat Organic where possible simply because I don't want all the Anti depressants and Antibiotics etc that's pushed into the food chain.
Some of you may think that it's a bit extreme maybe your right but at the moment apart from the stomach issue I do feel better for it....
Training is going well, I have to keep doing this because it dosen't take long before things to get out of control, and start feeling weak if I don't do something, this is probably due to the result of previous surgery, but I enjoy it and always have.......

Oxford results.

Well it's as I expected, the long and short of it is, because of previous surgery it is a technically difficult operation to perform but not impossible, if I decided to go ahead the chances of surviving the operation are very low, they may even stop the procedure during the surgery.
If I did make it through, because of the circulation issues I may lose both legs and my transplanted kidney, amongst others. As he didn't expect me to look so healthy the wise decision would be to not go ahead. This was said after I had given him an idea that I wasn't really 100% committed, He was very good about it and I think slightly relieved at my decision. If in the future things deteriorated the option is always there.

So now that's sorted on with the challenge in hand, It's no good dwelling on it and bringing myself down.

Oxford transplant visit

It's been awhile since last on here, really watching my food intake, protein levels and carbs.
Getting allot more essential Fatty acids and eating more raw. This happened pretty quick, mainly because of the bug I got a few months ago; I assuming it's a bug. It's very hard sticking to this way of eating and getting enough calories and being a diabetic, getting on the water has been hard also because of this, but I'll get there.

Off this morning to see the Oxford transplant team. Last time I saw them, they suggested that there would not be a problem performing the Pancreas transplant, just may take slightly longer because of the previous operations.
A month ago I received a call from the Transplant coordinator saying that they may not be able to perform the Transplant,  to difficult and dangerous for me, so they would like to talk to me. I know what there going to ask.
I do not want to go through, in any way what so ever, anything like the complications that surfaced before. So if the decision is left to me I won't decide there and then, I know some people will be thinking if it was me and I had a chance of a knew Pancreas I wouldn't hesitate, but at what cost? all sorts of problems arose before, My bowel was nicked, my Aorta burst, I was drip fed for months, I know people go through worse, but How long will it last it's not for ever, It could be but it may not. I just don't think I could physically and mentally do it again, and there's my family to think of first and for most, when it came down to it before, I was more concerned about leaving them behind, maybe that's what pulled me through, not sure and at this moment I don't want to remember that far in........

Well been hit by a stomach bug "NICE" just when I was getting in the groove as they say. I haven't had a bug since the transplants, and I can't seem to get rid of it. I did go to the doctors as a precaution and I was the third to call in that morning so there is something going around.
The thing is my diet is pretty good and always has been, I tend not to eat any crap so as far as fat is concerned I don't carry;" lucky you" yo may say, but I have to work hard to put on muscle and keep it. we all have a cross to bare lol.
I'm going back on the transplant list for a pancreas, and at the moment going through all the tests. I'm still not sure about doing it because of what happened before; I just about made it, had allot of problems with surgery, i won't mention it here but if your interested you can read the story in my profile and click on "Thank you". I know it's the way to go because of more complications which could arise. There's allot to weigh up, there is a possibility it could happen again and there's more involved with this surgery because of the Aortic graft, and of course there's the issue of my leg, I could loose it below the knee or face two years of operations, or maybe struggle on as it is, which won't do me any good.

In the mean time I think about being positive, they say that life is like looking in the mirror it reflects what you put out, so you try and look for the good in everything, find what you enjoy doing, and then the next. It's good to have contrast, :-) but not to much hey. Most times the head can get in the way, so I try and follow my heart. I try to live one day at a time, I find if I look to far ahead that's when the pressure builds up I'm not saying hide away and ignore it because we have things like bills to pay and commitments, there's something to be said for just "being" living for today, none of us are perfect and never will be and we'll never get everything done, there will always be more to do, life can be a struggle if you let it but they are also the times when we can grow. I'm grateful for what I have now.

Anastacia Defeated

Do you know what I mean. Music sometimes just does it, right?
Although the word fight may not be quite right, Fight conjures up a struggle, stress, a 50 50 chance of losing, I don't think you should feel like that, you will! because we've been brought up to believe that it's the only way to achieve something or win out........