Well been hit by a stomach bug "NICE" just when I was getting in the groove as they say. I haven't had a bug since the transplants, and I can't seem to get rid of it. I did go to the doctors as a precaution and I was the third to call in that morning so there is something going around.
The thing is my diet is pretty good and always has been, I tend not to eat any crap so as far as fat is concerned I don't carry;" lucky you" yo may say, but I have to work hard to put on muscle and keep it. we all have a cross to bare lol.
I'm going back on the transplant list for a pancreas, and at the moment going through all the tests. I'm still not sure about doing it because of what happened before; I just about made it, had allot of problems with surgery, i won't mention it here but if your interested you can read the story in my profile and click on "Thank you". I know it's the way to go because of more complications which could arise. There's allot to weigh up, there is a possibility it could happen again and there's more involved with this surgery because of the Aortic graft, and of course there's the issue of my leg, I could loose it below the knee or face two years of operations, or maybe struggle on as it is, which won't do me any good.

In the mean time I think about being positive, they say that life is like looking in the mirror it reflects what you put out, so you try and look for the good in everything, find what you enjoy doing, and then the next. It's good to have contrast, :-) but not to much hey. Most times the head can get in the way, so I try and follow my heart. I try to live one day at a time, I find if I look to far ahead that's when the pressure builds up I'm not saying hide away and ignore it because we have things like bills to pay and commitments, there's something to be said for just "being" living for today, none of us are perfect and never will be and we'll never get everything done, there will always be more to do, life can be a struggle if you let it but they are also the times when we can grow. I'm grateful for what I have now.